Rachel Dashae - Alternative Model

I am a little bitter.

I feel weird and paranoid. But I have been reading and really thinking of getting rid of certain kinds of people in my life. I think I am just really realizing what I have been through the past almost week.

I can’t believe it’s been a week. I have had so much self-reflection it’s ridiculous. It’s overwhelming sometimes, but it makes me feel refreshed.

The only thing I wish for you is that you are doing the same. But something tells me you’re probably not. I am sort of digusted by the amount of forgiveness. I am sure you felt the same way about me before.

But I was never a verbally abusive jerk.

ahem.

I am super happy to be in a place with so many supportive people, and I am for once in a long time, looking so forward to my future. I cleaned all day today, and that was pretty nice. Cleaning calms me, I guess it’s a way of washing away impurities. Which seems like a lot when you’re coming out of a bad place.

I can feel the old optimistic lovely girl coming back out. I missed her.

I cannot wait to see a friend from home this Sunday though. I am so ghey. :]